Okay so I'm back :)
I went no where loll just havent posted in like a week.
Anyways, today I went with my sister to help her with a little house shopping. After which she wanted to go to a thrift store. Here it was: The Ultimate Test!
I was kinda nervous with just the thought of going. I havent stepped foot in a thrift shop since I began my 1 year no clothes shopping pledge. And Im around a month in. While there I first tried to ignore the many many options that I came across. So many vintage pants, so many shirts that would make/create that outfit I have wanted for a while. Everything was there, rows and rows upon rows of clothes. I dont know why but I had to go look at the dresses they had. They had this cuteeeee nude pink dress that was only $5. Oh god when I saw that I knew it was over!!
I was gonna loose. I was gonna fail. I tried to rationalize it to myself:
'Well you cant win at everything'.
'No ones good at everything'.
'Cant succeed at everything'
Yes I had turned this pledge into a competition. I am quite competitive Im beginning to realize lol.
I stood there looking at the dress thinking about the quality of it and how cute it would look with that one blazer I had. I took it off the rack. Looked at it. Held it up against my body. Noted the length was perrfect (I'm 5'7" not that easy to find).
All of a sudden I remembered that this was something that I really wanted to do. I remembered:
'Im not a loser'
'I dont fail'
I accomplish my goals'
I dropped the dress (literally) and walked away quite briskly. I had to get away from it like it was the devil itself. The rest of the trip was a piece of cheesecake. Yum! I just held my niece to keep my hands and eyes busy. I left feeling like a baby who'd been teased with some candy and at the last second it was ripped from her hands. It was so close yet I couldnt taste it. I couldnt even get a lick. NOTHING!
But that doesnt matter, what does matter is that I left with nothing. Not even jewelry which would've been totally okay to buy. No vintage handbag. Nothing!
At that moment I felt invincible! I really felt like Supergirl. If I can resist that temptation, And boy is that a temptation, than I can overcome ANYTHING!
♥♥♥Stay Golden Loves ♥♥♥♥
PS. My sisters baby shower is this weekend. I still havent gone shopping for that and the thought of stepping into a mall is a little scarey. I'm sure this will be another test. Lets see how this goes.....
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